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Ya Allah, what I've done to received so much love from Him? I am truly sinful and weak..yet I received so much I can't believe I should. </div><div><br></div><div>I feel very sorry to share this even I am in concious of people at my surrounding. I always think of the not-yet-fortunate or I better say that miracles works differently for some people especially those struggling to have kids and those looking for spouses. May Allah shower them with rezeki to have kids and get married to the best man in the world. Aamin. </div><div><br></div><div>Can't lie that I am truly excited for this little one. MasyaAllah..the feeling of carrying another living soul in my tummy is beyond what words can describe. I am almost 22weeks pregnant, blessed with a loving husband, my all-time supportive family members, caring bestfriends and colleague. I couldn't ask for more.. Alhamdulillah. </div><div><br></div><div>Back to our little bundle of joy, at this stage we could actually know what gender it is to bring more excitement as I wish for. My baby starts kicking at his 17th week that almost brought me to tears. I feel very pregnant! Hihi We went for our first baby check up at then but this little bun decided not to show us. It gave us more nerve and butterflies, it won't let mommy and daddy start shopping just yet I guess. </div><div><br></div><div>So, we planned to have another check up and scanning for the baby gender on my 6th month pregnancy in two weeks time. <span style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, helvetica, arial, sans-serif;">Wish us luck this time. Mommy and daddy need to decide on your name, darling. So mommy daddy can start calling you for real then *wink* Mommy Daddy love you, honey! 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Alhamdulillah that Allah bestowed me with the chance to breath in the brand new oxygen. So this is the first entry of the year for me! Clap..clap! Couldn't be so sure whether there will be next entry after this, but Allah knows. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-H7uMcg8SAI8/VKhM5U-kjVI/AAAAAAAACT8/8j1DDeCjT-s/s640/blogger-image-2081744798.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh6.googleusercontent.com/-H7uMcg8SAI8/VKhM5U-kjVI/AAAAAAAACT8/8j1DDeCjT-s/s640/blogger-image-2081744798.jpg"></a></div><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">So, how old is me already? Ahaaa.. It's pretty easy on how to remind myself about my age, look at the last digit of the particular year. This 2015 has put myself on the 25th of the unknown timeline. See, that makes a quarter to 100. Did I make it too obvious? Yes Akmar, you are. Feeling so thankful for this chance to live. By the way, I wonder who is still spending their time reading blogs and do the writing in a year where people running their life to be as 'short-sweet-simple' as possible. Anyone? Anyone still practicing the correct spelling in every conversation? If yes, you are one in a million. Pat yourself for me.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Now I am taking a step back and rethink. It would be great if I could continue blogging here disregard the feeling of insecurity I always have. I should enjoy my interest in writing! (Despite all the unfinished stories written on my notes) I guess the process of reflecting my life so far becoming too personal when I chose not to save them in words. Keep the private parts privated they said. I mean to write something meaningful and more on knowledge base piece of writings (could i really do that?) rather than the feelings feel-like-vomitting kinda things. Cheer me, please? </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">However, the pros of not sharing the thought is I could easily let go things to tame my pride. To keep everything inside, to burst it slowly secretly instead of trying to compress my thought on twitter, i did sometimes. It also hard to restrict my self from being too reflective on FB and can't help myself being too carefree in sharing random things that I think are funny. Funny? that sounds ridiculous. On top of that, to write some serious matters will eventually lead to more confusion I dare not to involve. Will this year be my debut year of becoming more expressive? Please excuse me. </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><br></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both;">Just before I started a new post, I walked down the memory lane reading few of my words that are vomitted out of my unpredictable life. Not that complicated actually, just the way I wrote was too childish, too emotional, too diversed. How I missed those moments, I admit they have became so special now. I actually cannot tell by the topic, they were complicated, unpredictable and random. Since when did I learn to be focus about anything? Never. Woman writes to clear her head, remember? Blog is invented for that I believe. Can't wait to write and read my own stories. 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In the name of Allah,<a href="http://akmarnabila1990.blogspot.co.uk/#"></a> The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.</div>
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Berusahalah dalam menjadi soleh dan musleh, yang membuat kebaikan dan mengajak kepada kebaikan. Lately, I just realised that Allah has sent so many awesome people as part of my life to manoeuvre through all the hardship, that give me a lot, motivate me, remind me, and sometimes I feel pampered. So, the tough life seems easy, whenever we talk, we discuss, we correct each other and finally we met. I feel everything in ease, my heart comforted. Barakallahufiq, May Allah bless you. </div>
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16-18.11.2012 Great experience and sharing moment, worth spent. I beg Allah to hold our hearts till jannah. Untukmu jiwa-jiwa kami!</div>
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I'll try to remember this date, when all the effort to make it real ends. I love the hardship we've been through, team spirit given , the event, the content, the videos, the circle, I love my team, I love everything about that day. Handling the module wasn't really easy, but with a good, supportive and great team, it finally accomplished, alhamdulillah! <span style="text-align: center;">..and the day our hearts been tested. Allahurobbi. </span></div>
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El-Azwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/01107701410141808817noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3138349399064760887.post-84331154212482373392012-11-04T23:31:00.000+00:002012-12-09T22:32:43.252+00:00Dan demi waktu..<div style="text-align: center;">
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In the name of Allah,<a href="http://akmarnabila1990.blogspot.co.uk/#"></a> The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.</div>
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“Dan mohonlah pertolongan dengan sabar dan solat" </div>
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Tangan-tangan Allah itu berada di setiap tempat di dalam diri kita. Dia mengawal semua tindakbalas yang berlaku, tinggi rendah hormon, pengaliran darah dan neuron serta banyak lagi process yang melahirkan kita hari ini. Bersyukurlah sekiranya hari ini kita mampu tersenyum, kerana senyuman itu terukir atas kehendak Allah, jika kamu gembira hari ini bersyukurlah kerana kegembiraan itu diperoleh atas kehendak Allah. Selepas kegembiraan, Allah hadirkan pula rasa menyesal agar kita tahu berpada-pada dalam hiburan dunia, bersyukurlah lagi kerana berapa ramai manusia dibiarkan dalam kegembiraan tanpa ada sedikit rasa sesal. Bersyukurlah, bersyukurlah. <br />
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Biarlah kita hidup dengan agenda memenuhi kehendak manusia lain daripada bergelumang dengan kehendak diri yang entah apa-apa dan belum tentu bermanfaat untuk semua. Sekurang-kurangnya hidup ini bererti, tidak pada diri pada masyarakat dan Islam, bukan ke erti hidup pada memberi? Memudahkan urusan orang lain, mengisi tempat yang diperlukan bilamana ramai yang menolak, belajar mengalah dan menerima. Hakikat yang perlu diingat ialah bekerja bukan lah kerana manusia, biarlah sebagai alat untuk meraih redha Allah. Bagaimana? Mudahkan urusan mereka dengan tidak mengharapkan ganjaran apa-apa, kecuali berharap agar Allah gembira dengan usaha kita.<br />
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"Every 60 minutes in Africa, one hour pass" We might think this is a funny fact, but it's no joke. People in Africa suffer every second, but here we feel time flies real quick. Let's learn to appreciate what we have, and what is left. Maka, sebenar-benar aku mohon diberi keberkatan masa, Allahurobbi. Jangan biarkan aku hidup bersama kehendak dan keperluan mereka yang tidak tertunai. Opps, kan dah teringat minutes MSOC yang berapa kurun tak siapkan tu. Ok, feel like to stop here..<br />
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Whenever I look at this schedule, it seems that I have lot more time left, maybe I should add up the homework, discussions, many-many meetings, events and gathering we were having. Plus, the laundry, cooking time, visits and shopping. herher~ Sometimes, I feel I can't handle this routine, now I realize that it's been almost two months and I am still standing. Alhamdulillah. A week more to go for training until the tournament this upcoming Saturday, insyaAllah. Doakan ;)</div>
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Terpana baca bil statement dari Three Mobile, bil bulan lepas menjangkau GBP75, selalunya GBP30, kadang-kadang saja naik sampai GBP40 bila waktu-waktu travelling. Ngaaaa banyaknya Three charge! Saya sepatutnya tak terkejut, sebab roaming di Malaysia tempoh hari, kisah calling parent guna nombor UK, juga disebabkan kes tertinggal sim Celcom, dan kes nombor Lebara tak boleh pakai, jadi saya patut ready dengan ini, cuma tak sangka banyak sangat pulak. Kepada semua sahabat, jangan cuba buat perkara ni kalau taknak rasa sentap dengan agensi mobile anda. Saya kena redha (ye ker redha macam ni?), takdalah sampai nanges kan, amazingly(?) saya siap boleh ada selera makan burger pakcik Balti tadi, walaupun duit kena sedut dengan banyaknya! Insya Allah, ada hikmahnya..bersabarlah Akmar. Simpan la dulu hasrat nak beli Pyrex ke Corningware ke and what so ever tu.. Sejak bila entah minat periuk belanga nih -,-</div>
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Sejurus selepas berita penarikan wang yang banyak tu, di selekoh keluar dari Lloyds TSB Bank, saya bertembung dengan seorang African guy, salam diberi, katanya dari Manchester, datang Portsmouth berjumpa kawan-kawan, saya tak berapa pay attention sangat jadi saya minta dia ulang, tengah serabut muhasabah duit kena tarik katakan, jelas rupa-rupanya dia perlukan wang, kata dia: "I need some kind of sadaqah". Terus saya terfikir, Allah tested me real quick, I was thinking 'Subhanallah, this is a test!' and I don't mind whether that man was being honest with me or not, I just hope he feels safe and blessed. Memang kena betul dengan situasi saya tadi, otak hanya fikir kenapa? kenapa? kenapa? Kenapa saya kena ujian bentuk kewangan ni? Zaaapp, kena lagi! Jangan la nak berkira sangat.. InsyaAllah, moga Allah merahmatinya. Lepas kejadian tu, kaki terus singgah Balti order burger despite of my financial status. Allah uji sikit aja pon, ada je lagi duit tu. Rezeki Allah tu kat mana-mana je Akmar, Abang kata, anjing yang terbiar tu pun Allah jamin akannnya rezeki, inikan pula manusia yang kuat dan sihat macam Akmar Nabila ni. Ada manusia, Allah uji sampai muflis, nauzubillahiminzalik. Allah uji ni sebab Allah sayang...sweet kan? Pujuk hati ;)</div>
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Lately, saya rasa agak tak terurus, bila bahan reading before class sempat baca separuh, bila kain baju tak terlipat. Mak saya kata "Kain baju tu lipat kemudian pun takpa". Bila greenlight kata takpa..dah jadi tak buat. Haru biru dibuatnya. Siapa nak ambil menantu macam ni? Eh, menantu pulak fikir. Itulah, asyik fikir i am a monochronic lah, monotask lah.. Hey,a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do. Right? Biar saya letak definisi monochronic di sini, untung dapat belajar <i>Intercultural Perspective,</i> unit elective yang saya minat tu. "Monochronic cultures like to do just one thing at a time. They value a certain orderliness and sense of there being an appropriate time and place for everything. They do not value interruptions. Polychronic cultures like to do multiple things at the same time." Contoh Polychronic cultures are Americans and French people. Kadang-kadang saya jealous dengan golongan polychronic ni sebab mereka multitasking and easy-going, they do not find any interuptions as an insult. Saya rasa Malaysian is a fairly polychronic culture due to the collectivism we have. Have a try and define yourself. Bercampur baur semua bahasa Malaysia dengan Omputeh kat sini haa.. </div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~ Semoga sentiasa tenang dalam lindungan Allah, ceria-ceria dalam cinta Allah, juga selalu senyum dengan aturan Allah. Dan yang penting sabar, syukur dan redha untuk setiap sesuatu. Kedua-dua bola mata saya mengerling ke kanan melepasi selak langsir ke tingkap rumah jiran, cuak setiap kali terperasan lampu dapor rumahnya terpasang. Mana tahu ada geligat manusia yang pandang ke luar, kalau terpandang kita ni karang.. habeslah walaupun kepala dah berbungkus dengan hoodie cardi kaler kelabu wool-knitted, yang murah saya beli kat ebay. Apartment sewaan kami ni T-shape, maka kedudukan dapor rumah sebelah agak dekat dengan kedudukan bilik saya. Sebab tu langsir di atas kepala katil tu dibiarkan menutup tingkap, play safe orang kata. Duduk bersila atas kerusi kayu memandang laptop, sesekali pandang ke luar tingkap yang lagi satu ni, untung-untung nampak bulan di balik pokok. Subhanallah! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Baru sahaja buat talian ke Plymouth, hubungi sister sama usia dengan saya di sana. Asalnya atas urusan yang saya terlupa, sempat juga saya tanyakan khabar cuma saya lupa nak ucap tahniah atas walimahnya summer lepas! Oleh sebab ukhti tu pun tak dapat beri jawapan pada saya, terpaksalah saya panjangkan pada ketua. Saya sekarang tengah tunggu replied message dari dia, sebab tanpa message tu saya tak dapat nak teruskan kerja. Patutnya saya buat kerja lain sambil2..tapi saya monochronic, should finish one after another. Bila start, susah nak tukar. Saya orang yang malas buka email ni memang la, kalau posmen hantar surat pun saya belum tentu baca, inikan pula email berjela, kena tulis besar-besar "UNTUK AKMAR NABILA" baru nak baca rasanya.. Call me maybe? ;P kidding.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Tahu tak apa yang membelenggu saya sejak jejak Tanah Pompey dua minggu lalu? Sampai takut nak luang masa di blog, padahal bertenggek di tempat lain boleh pulak. Yakni bilamana urusan-urusan yang perlu dilaksanakan, saya langsaikan satu-satu macam siput jalan..amoeba pun jalan lagi laju rasanya. Poor me. Post nota circle pun lewat, ikutkan lewat 4 hari kot, oleh sebab apa yang saya type tu hilang selepas terklik link lain, saya terus tutup dan buat kerja lain, risau kalau terus layan frust kat situ, hati dah ke lain, kemudian ada hati balik nak type semula untuk sahabat2 selepas 3 hari kemudian. Tu yang lambat tu ;P Kini, kacamata bagai diubah sedikit, bak kata matsalleh, it is a taste of another flavour of life. Berjumpa dengan muka-muka baharu, rutin harian yang sedikit berbeza, suasana yang berubah sedikit, alhamdulillah..</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Terkejar-kejar juga lah sekarang bila Susan dah bagi tarikh School Visit, hari Rabu bukan lagi hari saya boleh target untuk sumbat dan anjak kerja. Tidak lagiii...! Balik aja sekolah, penatnya semena...entah mampu ke tidak pergi swimming, planning sakan macam nak pergi scuba diving dah, sengaja saya beli diving suit yang tebal tu, sebab kononnya nampak sopan sikit, saya ni pemalu kalau nak tahu, even with the girls! ;P sem ni entah dari mana keberanian datang tetiba nak join team renang Pompey. Lihatlah apa akan jadi esok, insya Allah.. saya tahu berenang underwater je pon, nak lama2 kena angkut oxygen tank..</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Rasa-rasanya, si ketua ni macam tak akan balas text saya malam ni,..Esok mungkin insya Allah. Lama-lama saya menaip ni, nanti macam2 cerita tak kelakar saya curahat kat sini. Ok la lil Bloggie, saya ni tak boleh lama2, karang mata terpejam, terkorbanlah masa saya untuk malam yang berharga ni.. Doakan saya untuk proposal project final year! Moga rahmat Allah sentiasa dicurah-curah ke atas kita! aamin :)</span></div>
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Do you know the best definition of friendship I could find? It is when you randomly giving a call to friends asking for hands, they are happily agreed just like the phrase "why don't you tell me earlier?" is never exist. I'm so touched today when Shu agreed to accompany me buying baking stuff when I thought she has so much time so I picked her up from work and drop her home in a minute before we went to Souq Al-Bukhary. I know I should give a call earlier but I also knew that if she could, she would. That was totally random, I planned to go by myself by the way. he he he. Afterall, I know she's been busy preparing stuff since she just got a call from KL's Company today! for her first interview, which is the day after tomorrow. Shu is getting ready having some reading about that company, I tried helping her finding the best shoes to match with her blazer and shawl, a suitable one for a Future Executive. InsyaAllah. May everything run smooth and fine. Doakan Shu !</div>
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When I know she is desperately in need of a proper shoes, a heels, still I messed up her life asking "What is the different between Baking Powder' and 'Self-Raising Flour'?", "Is super-fine flour the same as one we call tepung roti?" Then, we giggling like nobody cares. I just don't get myself, kesian Shu, she was patiently helping finding all those stuff tadi. Unplanned, we decided to break fasting at Marry Brown, we have to because we were running out of time, kecemasan. Kesian Mak kat rumah berbuka sensorang, anak dia tak sabar nak beli cream cheese, dah tu pinjam tudung yang Mak selalu guna keluar rumah siram pokok lak tu ;P I am too happy for Shu, that is why I'm here expressing. May Allah reserve a space for us in Jannah. Allahu Amin [^_^]V</div>
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El-Azwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/01107701410141808817noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3138349399064760887.post-58414535854144249422012-09-10T23:52:00.002+01:002012-09-10T23:52:51.822+01:00Simply Ordinary<div style="text-align: center;">
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I can speak something better I suppose only when I'm prepared, but I do differently when it comes to blogging, means never ever have that thought. I cannot even talk about myself. When people just read me through my blog, fb or any other spaces, i'm afraid they would have less informed how hopeless I am unless they pay my friends to tell them. Ngaaa.. Overboard la tu! Last week, Amelia, my not so small sister was doing her resume for her mock interview. I just happened to help her checking few things, not really helping, but complaining here and stuff. Then, I have come across to have something we call a basic fact about ourselves, my resume last time in school wasn't really good, especially on the affiliation part. hehe During my mocking interview in school, i talked about GMF. haha. cita-cita ku sudah terkubur.. But it wasn't the reason I wanted to write about bit of myself tonight, not telling any improvement either. Just assume that I've lot of free time. It is to test my confidence by writing all these fact. The fact that I am so average just like girl next door. There you go anonymous. </div>
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My Simply Ordinary educational phase and it's glimpse of history:</div>
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<b>1996</b> <b>- Tadika Kemas Taman Seri Gading, Pokok Sena, Kedah</b>. </div>
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Jarak 20 meter dari rumah approximately. Dekat dan jimat. Menangis masuk tadika ni. Pernah kena rotan sebab berlari dengan kawan-kawan sampai langgar orang dan orang tu menangis lalu Cikgu Timah datang dengan rotan untuk menenangkan keadaan. Rasanya itu kali pertama dan terakhir kena rotan dengan pembersih tingkap colourful yang hujungnya besi. T.T tak dinafikan sakit sampai tak terkata tapi tak nangis pun. Esoknya pergi juga tadika tu. Walaupun dah belajar bersosial tapi still takut nak masuk sukaneka. Pernah wakili tadika pergi bertanding seni tekap warna air and mewarna, time tu demam dan muntah-muntah parent tak ada nak temankan macam budak-budak lain. Sedih tapi cool, agak hilang arah time tu, taqdir mempertemukan saya dengan Mak Njang yang dihantar oleh Ayah. he he he.. </div>
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<b>1997-2002 - Sekolah Kebangsaan Pokok Sena, Kedah.</b><br />
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Enam tahun yang best, paling cool dan juga paling comot. Fasa membina sahabat yang hingga kini masih terpatri. InsyaAllah. Tempoh ni kami banyak berjalan kaki ke tempat-tempat yang pada hari ni confirm akan naik kereta pergi. Tempoh bermain yang sampaikan atas pokok depan rumah, bukit belakang taman, lubang bawah tanah, hutan perumahan baru, belakang rumah jiran, dan segenap lubang dan penjuru pekan Pokok Sena kami redah. We live life to the fullest. Fasa ini juga menjadi harapan sekolah, membina kejayaan demi kejayaan dalam setiap ruang dan pertandingan. Alhamdulillah. Kenangan menjadi shooter netball, pendeklamasi sajak, tukang cerita bahasa inggeris, pengawas sekolah, sprinter, long jumper, pelakon puisidra sains, tukang naikkan bendera sekolah, bernasyid ehem... Tak lupa juga kenangan jadi ketua kelas. ho ho ho. Fasa anti-lelaki, species tu tak boleh buat silap sikit.. Ya Allah, indahnya kenangan masam manis masin kelat semua ada..</div>
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<b>Jan 2003- Feb 2003 - Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Agama Yan, Kedah. </b><br />
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Sebulan lebih yang bermakna, mengenal erti kelemahan dan berdikari. Tempoh struggle yang separuh nyawa, mengejar masa belajar, menguruskan diri dan rehat. Ditambah dengan tekanan, trauma jika membuat silap. Tak terkejar masa yang ada hingga belajar entah ke mana disebabkan penat memanjang dengan pengurusan diri dan sekolah, dengan homesick yang tak terkata, parent yang tak pernah melawat melainkan datang menjemput pulang atau hantar, syukur dapat menumpang kasih keluarga sahabat di sana. Tidur selewat pukul 12 malam kerana setiap hari perlu membasuh dan meng'iron dengan pakaian yang limited, dan bangun seawal pukul 4.30 pagi untuk elakkan queue panjang. Di sana saya kenal serangga berbahaya Charlie, hingga sahabat saya menumpang tidur sekatil dek takut. Hampir setengah bulan hidup di SMKA Yan, saya masih tak tahu dan tak ambil tahu kenapa para senior lelaki disuruh panggil dengan panggilan 'Pak Cik' dan tak pernah pula terfikir ada panggilan lain yang sangat di'banned. Sekarang saya faham. Saya tak pernah outing. never. Oh, saya dilantik wakil dorm untuk Lajnah Surau. Banyak lagi cerita pelik dan memalukan yang saya belajar.. saya sangat hargai peluang belajar di sana :)</div>
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<b>Feb 2003- 2005 - Maktab Rendah Sains Mara Pendang, Kedah. </b><br />
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Coretan pengalaman paling indah, teratur juga paling skema dalam sejarah seorang pelajar. Pengalaman yang sangat berbeza, bebanan dan tekanan yang dirasakan kurang, peraturan yang fleksible, rutin yang boleh diikut dengan baik. Stress free! Saya dapat fokus belajar dan boleh ikut rentak hidup di situ. Mungkin dah terbiasa susah di SMKA. Parent juga selalu datang melawat kalau minggu tu tak boleh pulang bermalam, di sini pun saya tak outing, pernah sekali dua je kot sepanjang tiga tahun di situ. Pertama kali apply ahli Biro Agama, siap kena interview, malu fikir balik sebab yang apply dua orang je. Di sinilah saya sedar diri ini tertarik dan suka dengan aktiviti di surau. Saya sayang guru-guru di MRSM Pendang. Wakil kelas main petanque dengan Cikgu Rodzi tu yg tak boleh lupa, kenangan bersama beberapa sahabat serta junior join Camping Pandu Puteri MRSM Se-Malaysia juga kenangan terindah saya. Saya suka camping. Pertama kali dipilih menyertai kumpulan Bahas Maktab selepas Oral Test Bahasa Melayu. Antara peserta terawal menamatkan larian merentas desa juga tempat ke tiga larian 1500km jarak jauh wakil rumah sukan, oh saya pernah pengsan atas track. malu malu! Pengalaman menjadi mentor subject Sains juga melucukan, dikejar mentee. Kenangan yg agak sweet lagi, bila terpilih menjadi wakil pelajar perempuan hal-ehwal agama di surau sebab calon pertama sebelum nama saya disebut tak pakai sock. Lepas nama dicadangkan, pemegang mic tanya "Akmar pakai sock x?" hehhehe. Pakai. Kenangan demi kenangan tersemat sampai lah ke pejabat pengetua mengambil result PMR. </div>
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<b>2006-2007 - Maktab Rendah Sains Mara Langkawi, Kedah. </b><br />
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Dua tahun yg singkat, padat dan penat tapi penuh dengan suka duka dan ragam. Penuh dengan turun naik dan cabaran pelajar yang bakal mengambil SPM. Disibukkan dengan segala macam hingga hilang fokus. Masa tu saya tak sedar saya ni Mono-Task! Dengan subject yang bertambah, fokus mencapah, masalah bersepah, bayangkan lah tempoh ni tempoh saya tak berapa tentu arah. Takdalah pegang jawatan tinggi pun. Tak berapa biasa dengan budaya sosial di situ, saya terkapai-kapai juga dalam handling stuff. Alhamdulillah, terikat dengan tugas handle usrah setiap minggu, saya bersama team Badan Dakwah dan Rohani (BADAR) yang mantap, golongan pemikir dan golongan yang dedikasi, merancang program dan pengisian tanpa jemu. Amali solat, treasure hunt, sampai lah ke usrah mingguan dan debat. Terlibat juga dengan persediaan camping, kawad, gajet, dan segala macam persediaan untuk meraih juara. Alhamdulillah, kami dapat tempat ke-2. Banyak juga saya buat silap, banyak juga pengalaman baru yang dicuba-cuba. Pertama kali bawa handphone ke sekolah, itu silap saya juga dalam beratus lagi yang buat perkara sama. Jika kalian tanya fasa mana yang saya ingin kembali perbetulkan, dua tahun ini lah jawapannya. Cukup berbeza, hampir setiap minggu outing entah beli apa, pergaulan makin longgar, kalau ahli badar boleh berbual tak kira jantina di depan kelas secara terbuka (which is fine pun cuma saya rasa tak biasa), imagine how other students socialized even in places we never imagine. Allah is All-Knowing. Fasa ini, mata saya agak terbuka, minda juga berperang segala macam agenda. Walaupun kenangan sudah tersemat, kesedihan masih hangat..pengalaman ini saya ulangkali kongsi dengan Amelia, dengan harapan dia berhati-hati dan sedar keutamaannya di sana.</div>
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<b>June 2008- Aug 2008 - Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah, Changloon, Kedah. </b><br />
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Fasa pelarian, berlari ke kelas dan berlari dari manusia. Kenapa fasa pelarian? Kerana semua yang berkait di sana terlalu menggesa. Kelas dan kuliah silih berganti, report perlu disiapkan setiap hari especially Bio dan Chemist, juga latihan Math yang tak pernah habis. Beribu manusia di Matrix, agaknya boleh dibayangkan betapa sesaknya suasana. Alhamdulillah, highest mark in Bio Test menyemarakkan lagi semangat belajar dan mengejar cita-cita. Saya agak struggle dengan Chemistry, fuh! Saya join Cycling Club, menarik dan sihat. Perkara yang tak menarik ialah dikejar oleh insan yang membuatkan saya tak suka ke library, berjalan juga perlu berhati-hati, despite of the noisiest place it was. Perasaan diganggu memang rimas, itu antara sebab saya terima tawaran ke IPG, menguburkan cita-cita lalu. Selamat tinggal Biology...</div>
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<b>Aug 2008-2010 - Two years Foundation in B.Ed TESL di IPG Kampus Darulaman. </b><br />
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Dunia baru. Minda di'tuned ke meter seorang bakal guru. Payah. Fasa mengenal dunia yg baru dan apa yg disebaliknya. Masa ini juga perlu mengumpul minat terhadap teori, fakta dan penulisan yang sampai sekarang kena pastikan minat tu perlu ada. Dan yang pastinya, kebanyakannya tanpa sempadan, especially in learning Social Studies, everything beyond boundaries! Minat tu ada kot, insyaAllah. Tempoh ini tempoh melakar masa depan, agak jelas dah sikit kehidupan seorang bakal guru Bahasa Inggeris di sekolah menengah kementerian yang digeruni. Alhamdulillah, process adaptasi semuanya baik-baik sahaja. Kenangan indah melakukan semua perkara bersama, menatap wajah-wajah yang sama, rutin harian yang sama. Kenangan bersusah payah, jatuh sakit, menangis, dan sebagainya terkumpul membentuk asam garam kehidupan. Kami hidup bagaikan keluarga besar.</div>
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<b>Sept 2010-June 2013 - Degree in University of Portsmouth, United Kingdom</b> (InsyaAllah).<br />
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Mencipta langkah demi langkah serta prinsip menuju kedewasaan, mengenal dunia baru dan manusia di dalamnya. Pada masa yang sama bermatlamat menuju kehidupan selepasnya. Menginjak tahun demi tahun melepasi beberapa fasa bermasyarakat, berkawan dan bersosial. Jelas dan terang perubahan masing-masing, kami menginjak tahun ke-5 kuliah bersama. Tempoh yang cukup lama bagi saya dalam sejarah tempoh belajar di mana-mana tempat, ini tempoh paling lama. Yang manis ada, yang pahit juga. Masing-masing kini sudah dewasa. Saya menerima seadanya, memahami sebolehnya dan mengharap perubahan yang lebih baik untuk semuanya. Semoga kami berjaya bukan sahaja dalam meraih degree, juga berjaya di mata Allah SWT. Pengalaman menjejakkan kaki ke tanah-tanah yang jika ditanya di umur saya 17 tahun sekalipun, saya pasti tak menyangka akan dikurniakan peluang menjejaki tanah Allah yang serbaneka dan serba luas, subhanallah. Di usia ini saya sama sekali tak meyangka diberi izin Allah melewati lebih berbelas buah negara, melihat dan menghayati sejarah serta sociologi masyarakat luar yang berbilang bangsa dan budaya. Syukur Alhamdulillah. </div>
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<b>July 2013 - July 2014 - Final year degree and teaching practice in IPG Kampus Darulaman.</b> <br />
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Mungkin ini fasa memperkemas kesediaan berkareer (InsyaAllah) dan kesediaan berkeluarga (cewah!). Saya yakin ini juga tempoh sahabat-sahabat lain mencari atau menyempurnakan sebahagian dari agama. Saya serahkan pada ketentuan Allah, harapan itu tetap ada, membina Baitul Muslim atas titah Tuhan yang Maha Mencipta. Semoga saya tak kena posting jauh dari keluarga. Time ni mesti lebih banyak jemputan ke walimah sahabat-sahabat, tiba-tiba jadi tak sabar nak makan nasi minyak ^^</div>
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Shall I put a target on it? InsyaAllah. Wallahua'lam. Doakan please. heuheu :)</div>
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El-Azwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/01107701410141808817noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3138349399064760887.post-74211040034302837382012-08-27T19:30:00.000+01:002012-08-27T19:30:27.888+01:00Unfortunate Drama<div style="text-align: center;">
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Another best moment that suit me if I wanted to say that I refused to sit around and wait for someone else to do what God has called me to do myself. Maybe I should not say that I refused, actually that was the only choice I have, to do myself.<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 17px; text-align: start;"> </span>Now I am back to the place where people call me Nabila, how much I love those moments that man cannot see. Meeting families, friends and the rest Malaysians. Alhamdulillah. Hip hip hooray!...after sort of problems jumped into us (me and my partner, Sanak Nabil), we managed to landing safely. Thankful.<br />
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Here come to the reason of all misunderstanding, we went to see the customer service to ask about our flight to AS. Then, we have been told that the plane was departing from Singapore and due to the poor weather, it might be late. The attendance told us that the plane might be around 10 to 10.30p.m. Still, we got two hours before 10. I asked whether we could go up and have our dinner, she said it was fine to scan and go through the check up more than once. Looking at our dinner baucer given by MAS, we decided to claim it at the food court. Once the food is ready, I got phone call from Co's Grove, our housing agent telling us how to use the oven. What a perfect timing..<br />
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After a few minutes trying to enjoy the soup. It's probably around 9.30p.m., another phone call from my Ayah, telling us to hurry! the plane will depart in two minutes..TWO MINUTES?! <span style="font-size: x-small;">Oh shame..!</span> Makanan tak habes lagi..and we were running to the gate like nobody care. I dropped my passport and my phone on our way there, my friend almost bumped into a man with the troly T.T Why are they doing this to us? Why are they changing the time sesuka hati? Sroot..sroot.. Ni rasa nak tembak pilot-pilot termasuk staff-staff sekali dengan flight attendance, tak kira la handsome ke baik hati ke tak. Haaa..<br />
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Here we go, moment where KLIA banjir with tears after we reached the gate and we've been told that the thing that connect the plane with the runaway already been disconnected. I could see the plane from the place where I was standing. We missed the flight, and that was the last flight to Alor Star. The next one will be tomorrow's afternoon. The fact that we have to sleep at the airport did not surprised me at all, it wasn't my first time, but it was my first time missing the flight and it happened in my country sadly.<br />
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I was really disappointed about what has happened, the miscommunication and the poor arrangement, the poor system, and the poor me that definitely would surprise my parent. I didn't know that Ayah already knew that I missed the flight, he called my UK's number telling me to change the ticket to Penang, he will pick me up. I cried without a word. Ayah too shocked maybe when he knew I was crying, he just asked me to follow what we've been discussed, change our flight. I cried not because I hate MAS, I cried that those happen when I really wanted to meet my parent in one piece with no worries and drama. But there it goes... malu.<br />
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They truly admitted their fault and changed the tickets for free. But we have to re-check in our luggage because the cargo to AS been cancelled. We have to run again to the departure level. Ok Ok we also did wrong, tak dengar announcement (although it's too sudden, too hurry). Geram pon ada but we managed to reflect a lot on our way back to Penang. Ujian kesabaran di hari raya. Lucky me, flight to Penang was quite frequent. Oh thanks to existence of Penang. haha. The flight attendance give me two glasses of apple juice for that one hour journey. So, tak jadi marah lama2 :P haha... all in all, I thanked Allah for all that happened to us, we still alive and kicking. <br />
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SOMETIMES I challenge my fear by doing things against it. Whenever I am afraid or dislike any things, I practice hitting the like button and whenever I suppose to avoid or forget things, I end up following, investigating and learn from them until I get bored and simply forgot to continue those ritual. That's how I stop doing unnecessary thing by chasing them until it become tiresome. Why? Because I don't want to repeat my past by putting a wall, or deleting, or blocking, or even hating until I end up crying [hah. so immature me]. Please don't do these at home.<br />
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Am I look scary enough? Hope no one will over estimate my emotionally undeveloped side. I don't know how people see me, but my life so far is pretty good, stillness and complete calm, enjoying life with my precious friends around. I have something I need to overcome, kind of treatment. So, I need time to heals, some more time to learn. Grabbing some confidence and skills, insyaAllah. I am begging for Allah's mercy and blessings to become a better person. I feel sorry for somebody someone I never learn to know, or I may even cause displeasure to certain people I hardly known in person. I may end up saying sorry without proper explanations and left things hanging.<br />
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With that, I can announce my new shout for upcoming Syawal and see how long it would be: "Dasar Pandang ke Depan". Baru lah boleh cakap, "Sorry, I don't stick to the past" hikhik :P OK. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin, halalkan makan minum, ilmu dan segala harta kalian buat saya! Moga kita sentiasa hidup dalam doa masing-masing. InsyaAllah. Me going back to Malaysia on third Syawal is not a secret anymore, may our journey home safe and easy. I'm looking forward for my love ones, who never ever leave me...yet.hehe.<br />
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El-Azwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/01107701410141808817noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3138349399064760887.post-90989434128124682642012-07-27T04:37:00.000+01:002012-07-27T04:41:27.049+01:00My 22nd Ramadhan Bliss :)<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: white;">The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page. "Desires dictate our </span><span style="background-color: white;">priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions." -Dallin H Oaks. </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: justify;">Now is about 30 minutes before Fajr. It's been awhile since I have submitted the final coursework last time until the day I decided to write. I'm quite fascinated with the fact that I've managed to spend some good time with friends during summer. Alhamdulillah, everything went well and fabulous. We were doing fine so far and I bet everyone enjoyed the time travelling together with Kelana Convoy. What a summer vacation! Subhanallah. Wait until I uploaded some of the pictures on FB. The longest day of fasting would be on my third Ramadhan when we arrived in London, it was 20 hours. Usually we will fast just about 19 hours approximately but, on that day there's additional one hour because of the transition time from France to UK. We treasured the time on the Ferry really well though. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">My first Ramadhan was in France, we did our terawikh in the camping site. There was a tazkirah as well by Abu Jibril, the Bos. We spent our time in Disneyland, the first day we're fasting. What a day! I'm almost fainted until the last ride but it's really thrilled. Alhamdulillah. Everything seems so long here in Portsmouth, except the night, even the terawikh is ;P maybe the Imam wants to complete the whole Quran during Ramadhan that we prayed 8 rakaat for about one hour, it finished around 11.30pm. I feel so bad cause most of the time I feel so sleepy and couldn't focus during terawikh. T.T maybe because I eat alot during iftar! Forgive me. Forgive me ya Allah :( </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white;">I'd love the opportunity to celebrate Ramadhan in UK, it's kinda different from all the years before. Hope I treat him well till the end. Blessed! Alhamdulillah. On top of that, I am so glad that the convoy I would say has been my turning point of many things. Things I've endured before the travel especially the feeling and the mind setting. It's a relieve, I went travel with less concern in my head. It was a beautiful trip and kinda very sweet escape. Alhamdulillah. What ever it was let's start another chapter! All praises is to Allah :)</span></div>
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Alhamdulillah, Allah izinkan lagi bernafas hingga detik ini. Populasi Malaysian di UK dah susut sikit demi sedikit, paling drastik terasa sewaktu kepulangan senior Portsmouth. Sayu. Hiba. Panas je mata menahan agar tak tumpah. Sampai sahaja di rumah, perasaan bercampur tu lebih terasa. Teringat satu per satu amanat dari senior. Berterima kasih tak terhingga, bukan sahaja nasihat ditinggalkan, dari sebesar-besar iron board sampai lah ke rempah ratus turut diwariskan. Huu. Perasaan hilang kian menebal. Tumpah.</div>
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Rasanya ramai yang faham akan rasa hilang teman rujukan, teman bermain. Cukuplah dua hari bergelumang dengan perasaan kehilangan tu. InsyaAllah, mereka tetap ada dalam doa, walaupun semua saat bersama tidak dirakam kemas. Moga ukhuwah yang terbina selepas dihimpunkan atas jalan ini akan kekal walau jasad tidak lagi bersama. Hidup perlu diteruskan. Masa untuk menghargai mereka yang masih ada, mereka yang ada di depan mata. </div>
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To whom it may concern. <span style="background-color: white; text-align: justify;">Thanks for coming into my life leaving a sign of hope. </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: justify;">Thanks for the bravery. </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: justify;">For at least I know, I have been in your mind once and I'm not sure whether should I be thankful of it? So, I'll treat those as special unforgotten surprises, it short but struck. </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: -webkit-auto;">I hope those short stories came as blessing from Allah, moments for me to learn more about life. Barakallahufik. </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: -webkit-auto;">It's hard to believe. However, i choose to be right here,.. waiting. </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: -webkit-auto;">waiting for the uncertain. should i say I'm sorry </span><span style="background-color: white; text-align: -webkit-auto;">for today and feel bad about it just because i finally get what my heart says. May Allah guide and protect us. Oh Allah, which path are you leading me to ya Rabb? Surely, it will be the best way for me. Till then, give me some more strength and hopes.</span></div>
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Bismillah...sekadar coretan refleksi terhadap salah satu watak manusia. Antara pencarian solusi buatnya dan juga pengakuan terhadap taqdir yang untuk diubah amat sukar. Manusia berdiri dengan pelbagai peranan dan jalan cerita. Untuk lempiasan ini, soal yang tak dapat diuji kita serahkan pada Ilahi, pasti Dia miliki laporanNya sendiri, mari melihat coraknya dari luar bukan dari hati seorang manusia pemilik watak ini.</div>
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Oh ya, i should tell my mom and my sister about my great condition. I would like to thank to everyone who really cares thing i never realised, see thing i couldn't see, for me to always remember to thank Him. May Allah reward them happiness more than they deserve.
Finally, just come to realized that everyone has their own struggle and hardship. How difficult it is, Allah is always there for us. Because He created us with full of hardship, then how life could be that easy? I remember someone said: 'Tarbiah adalah untuk meramaikan ahli syurga, bukan semata-mata untuk meramaikan teman sefikrah'.
Suka atau tidak, Allah menjanjikan yang terbaik buat kita. Namun yang terbaik itu bolah jadi tidak kita sukai. Percaya lah ada hikmahnya. InsyaAllah. Let's move on. May Allah guide us to the straight path. Allahuaamin.
Uhibbukumfillah :)</div>El-Azwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/01107701410141808817noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3138349399064760887.post-6900003068136020812012-06-11T22:46:00.000+01:002012-12-09T02:36:52.165+00:00Belatinya hilang...<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: #fafafa; color: #333333; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 19px;"><span style="font-size: large;">سْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَـنِ الرَّحِيمِ</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: #fafafa; color: #333333; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue Light', HelveticaNeue-Light, 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 19px;"><span style="font-size: large;"><br />
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</span></div><div style="text-align: center;">“ Ya Allah. Bantulah hamba untuk (senantiasa ) mengingat-Mu, bersyukur kepada-Mu, serta memperbaiki (kualiti) ibadahku kepada-Mu.”</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Asatidzah pernah berpesan, kenal lah Allah melalui 99 nama Allah. Kalau saya ditanya maksud nama Allah sekarang, saya bakal kantoi sebab tak tahu makna semuanya. Kena nyanyi kuat2 nama dan maksudnya baru boleh ingat kot. Tsk..sedihnya. Seingat saya, dalam kamar abang, ada ditampal nama-nama Allah. Hmm, abang mesti ingat semua maksud nama-nama Allah, nama pemain bola pun abang tahu. Kalau ditanya saya nama pemain bolasepak, saya bakal kantoi lagi sebab saya tak tahu semua pun. Apa yang saya tahu ni? Tsk..sedih lagi. Jika ditanya saat ini apa status semangat saya, saya pun tak pasti. Mungkin ninja yang lesu. Life eventually made myself to be quite secretive, and even more defensive. Yes, we are challenged by an expected. Nasib baik tahu juga nak berlakon :D</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Apabila memandang nasihat-nasihat dari sahabat di mana-mana laman sosial, saya terfikir "Bagusnya selalu nasihatkan orang perkara-perkara basic as a Muslim". Bermula dari solat 5 waktu, solat jemaah sampai ke bacaan mathurat hari-hari dipesan. Entah kenapa, bagi saya sesuatu yang biasa dilakukan kadang-kala jarang orang pesan, selalunya the unusual things logiknya diutarakan, padahal the fundamental aspect in life itu yang perlu diajak selalu especially solat. Seperti manusia lain yang juga tidak ditaqdirkan untuk hidup di dunia untuk selama-lamanya. Dalam kesibukan menyelesaikan urusan hidup, dalam berusaha menjadi sebahagian pembina ummat, dalam menjadi sebahagian dari masyarakat, kadang saya lupa apa nasib kamar di alam barzakh nanti. Allahurobbi T.T </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Banyak sangat perkara yang saya perlu belajar, dan masa saya asyik dibazirkan dengan yang tak perlu. Saya mahu fahami the most fundamental aspect in life. Saya tahu setiap yang terjadi itu sudah yang terbaik dan diri ini sentiasa gagal melihat hikmah di sebalik kejadian. Kata orang: "Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata...badan binasa?". All in all, how much we try to find guidance and tips from others, in the end we ourselves will make the decision. That's really hard, saya tahu Allah akan berikan yang terbaik, boleh jadi yang terbaik itu ujian buat saya nanti. I shouldn't feel this way...i'm so scared T.T Why people loves to keep silence and run away? They are doing what I ever done. Karma~ Saya takut dengan hari esok :( di saat saya tak tahu bagaimana nak berlari. Allahurobbi, give another surprise that ease my soul. Please...</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Saya sepatutnya edit soalan interview untuk session bersama Head of SEN esok. Saya patut teruja sebab diberi mentor yang super baik. Alhamdulillah! Kenapa saya hinggap disini? Saya kemaruk nak spilling... Seperti mood sudah semakin baik, thank you Allah sebab beri idea untuk ambush blog ni. Semoga orang-orang yang saya sayangi, orang yang saya rindui, bermakna, istimewa dan yang saya kenali di luar sana memperoleh kebahagiaan, ketenangan dan kejayaan yang dicari. Saya tak boleh buat apa-apa kecuali memaafkan, that heals me better. May Allah bless us dear all :) </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br />
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