Ice – Breaker

The Cold_feelingless Hearted Ice

To all my ears..
It WAS not just the loss of sight.. was not only the loss of connection or even the bonding. It’s about everything about them.. and it's VANISHED!! The rope' seemed strong and permanent but once it had been pulled and pushed, it then loosen..untied..broken, any other words huh..?? it’s no more than just a weaken bond, FRAGILE.. That they used to over look up.

It was a big LOSS. 

What is that??? 

It must be love..of course.

It was 100% over.. She’s over.. Sick!! Tired!! Since the last words, those that telling her thousand perceptions were screwed, unmoved and now twisting her heart, her destiny into a better extent.. Better?? Hopefully.. 

On top of that, since it was impossible to reach back the time they've spent together, which is the hardest thing to overcome.. she prefer to keep it like how they end the bond.. no real explanations given.. a better word to say is unresolved.

Why??

WHY????

Does he realizes the exact reason why she did so?????  hope he is.. 

Memories shall remain inside, torn the wall, making the unstoppable bleeding..   Urgh!!!
So, there no use to think again..again..and again does there is hope left???               

Telling YES is the BIGGEST LIE she would ever made. The best thing she must be is to be real!! Stick with the principe for the sake of religion.. for the sake of God. How could we forget there's no permition in Islam that allow this kind of relationship..?? Once we 've been told..it had to bear in mind. This is not a joke,..

......a journey for a noble love never lies..

The loss of hope.. she, herself, and thee’… 

Less ever filled the sense of totally loss, but for this heart’ who has build a thick layer of ice full-covered to her heart seems never been broken by anyone yet.
Since when?
Since the last goodbye…the last 100 days.
Perhaps, the ice cap going to stay longer, thicker and no one will lay a hand on it..

 
Until…???
Till she find her ice-breaker..

Apparently, she lost in thought about him. Loveless. To thee she used to care before but now disappeared inside her.. he run farther from her life. Thee’ she used to talk oftenly was shrugged her off forever.. Thee’ who used to be her ‘ice-breaker ‘ now is keeping the load of ice over and over, he makes it thicker until it is unbreakable..
The heart now fully covered with the ice,.. the heart he used to touch before.. it keep her away from sensibility.. feeling… love.. someone..no more..

“The wall she build to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy”

The fact that she should realize, he will never coming back.. A big risk she takes to keep everything aside. Out of sight..out of focus..

It’s over!!!!

But, deep inside her.... she always hope the worse thing she did to him was forgiven.
She always hope that he's having live better.. How could he knows that he did a lot influences in this life.. He never know how much she loves him.. miss him.. Every single day passes he lays in line..line of the story.. being the part of her life..in her heart.

She's not lying but she just didn't tell....
that she needs a good friend as him..

everyday of her life,.. she only can help herself by saying..

"It's enough... it's over!!"

Love is hard..a noble one is much much harder.. 

she just need to have extra patience.

Ya Allah, give me strength..
Ya Allah, the real ice-breaker of my heart….

Andai ku mampu lebih adil antara kasihNya dan dia..tapi Mustahil. Sesungguhnya, aku tinggalkan cinta kerana Allah..
Ak pohon redhaMu Ya Allah..