~postmortem

Shall I say that our last Ramadhan was a postmortem towards ourselves? Shall or shouldn’t..ska ati den lar. hehhehehe… sorry, because for me it was.

Hurm,… it’s kinda of unusual when I woke up in our first Syawal without sahor and having breakfast. Urgh.. weirdo even I’ve practice the same thing through all 19 years minus thn2 x puasa tuh… lama gak kn. But still feels the odd..shall I say I miss Ramadhan already?

In my first Syawal, since both of my grandparents from my father side already passed away last year. I think this year and the rest of the coming years of Syawal, we gonna celebrate it at my father’s kampung. InsyaAllah..if that was not my last year living in this world or they would do the same thing for me together for my grandparents. err..

It is important to have kids.. our own kids. So that they could pray for us after we pass away. Reciting yaasin at the graveyard makes myself think about the day after tomorrow. Living is challenging, people are chasing each other toward a luxurious life. So, do they think about this? Do their children realize about this. How pity us if we have many child but they don’t even bother to pray for us in our life time or even after we dead. Hurm,.. I wish to have a big family..once in my dream..being a good mother toward my kids..ngeh3..one reason why I chose to be a teacher, cause I will have spare time with my family. Eventhough, being a teacher also a hard work career nowadays but at least they got hol’s to spend. Now, I’m afraid of how if my kids doing the same?? Like what most of the children doing nowadays… nauzubillah himinzalik..’ The best way, pray a lot, find a good partner..build a good family.. blink3***

What else?

Ahaaa…! Discover the beauty of Al-Quran also on the thing we should always practice. Ramadhan teach me that the hidden beauties in al-Quran are waiting for us to find it out. There are a lot!!! Only if you have desire to open, read, and understand it.. That’s why tadabbur is important… that’s why having discussion is important.. that why usrah is important.. haaaaa!! USRAH!! Joining usrah bring you closer to the creator of universe..bring you closer to the reality of ummah..closer to our history..

The people behind the scene yet not discovered by most of the people.. I’m sure you know who is Salehuddin al-Ayubi.. Sultan Mauhammad Al-Fateh.. Khalid al-Walid..but.. there some more..

Do you knoe Imaduddin Yankee??

Sharkoff??

Abu Dzar??

They also did a big contribution to our glorious empire once ago.. They are a great example we should follow to create a great empire we used to have long time ago. Now, we are working on toward the wishes. Everyone should do the same so that Islam shall rise...again. Islam shall rise no matter what but are we going to be part of the contribution??? THINK!!

We should remember!!! Who killed our prophet?????????? We shall not giving them chance, no matter how… they once been forgiven by the prophet but they didn’t learn.. i'm sure you know whose the subject i'm talking about.. huh'..


Ouh, i'm now started to emo once talkin bout this.. rsa nk beli sniper satu n join misi keamanan tu.. cehh... ye arr.. selagi x mati suma dyeorg tuh mne nk aman dunia nih.. tembak jerrr... urgh!! pandai lak ak ckp... perang mental kt negara sendiri x reti lak nk tangani.. heish...

Okay2,.. b4 i explode xtaw arah nie.. i better stop. Well, even we suppose to apologize every time we did mistakes, but i would like to take this opportunity to apologize everyone who drop by usha2 my blog nie.. mcm la ramai sgt.. hehhehehhe... mne taw accidentally terkutuk..neway, mmg ada pon..but i don't think the someone read this.. xpa lah.. 

Selamat Hari Raya..tahniah bwt semua yg berjaya melalui Ramadhan al-Mubarak..Maaf Zahir batin.. 

with balqis..1st raya~

gambar kazen2 ak yg kini dah makin besar... cute2 lak tuh.. syg sumanyaaaaa...muack2!!