Nothingness

There are some people in life that make ourselves laugh a little bit louder, smile a little bit bigger and live just a little bit better. Could it be ME? Rolling on the floor laughing. I wish I could. I'm so flattered when people said "I tagged you in this baby's picture right on the cheek because you love to smile", since I used to hear comments telling me that my serious face can kill. So, telling me that would be a bit surprising. 

So, let's put a smile a bit here :)

Kido, you're amazingly CUTE!! Rasa nak kiss bertubi-tubi kat awok nih. [gambar kutip kat net] Eh, muka awok sama dengan makcik bawah nih. Sama dekat mata jelah kot. Tapi makcik nih tak cute macam awok lah. Be my kid please! I'm dying sambil nak tumbuk screen laptop. Mintak maaf makcik, moga makcik dapat zuriat cute dan bijak macam this baby :)

Thanks to syud yang sudi amik gambar makcik nih. cubaan kenyit mata :P

Seriously moving further, sometimes when we were tangled up in a bunch of works, the feeling of being part from it is undeniable. Breaking it free! But, after taking a few steps back, I believe that myself is actually should be bonded in that kinda situation, or people call it lifestyle. A lifestyle that fewer people would enjoy. "Yes, I'm dying but I'm not died yet.." At least for the upcoming two or three years later, I could tell myself, "Finally I'd done something". I wish I could. I am afraid to make a guess about my teaching life. 

I severally heard my friends keep complaining about my 'tight' schedule this summer break. "Ila ni asyik busy ja". However, I'm not totally secured about the response and what they would copied next, but it dragged another thought provoking issues of  my life. 'Why do I make myself like that?' 'Do I make myself busy enough?'. I don't feel that way. I am doing nothing much. Nothing much. But, I do realize that sometimes I use to make things look complicated. Hiargh!

Again, i'm not died yet. But I'm getting closer to my final heartbeat. I don't have any special reason to make people smile, but it is something when we are the reason people smiling. Life tells me to keep moving. Regardless of anything coming to strike. I don't think I could bear another game. It's not about whether we hit the target or miss it, but it's about do we start to shoot or not to shoot.

Sometimes, things happen not to be understood..but to be accepted. Indeed. Turn back to Allah before it's too late.